I’ve been running again…running a lot. It helps my anxiety also I’ve found that peppermints are a good thing for me.
My anxiety is getting the best of me about school. I’m having bad/weird dreams again. This happened before I went to WSU too.
Its come in a different form this time. It’s been awhile since I was low but even though it’s not showing up like it has in the past I feel heavy. It could be the heat but I don’t know it’s weird. I just lay around all day. I read the Divergent series. I’ve slept and taken many naps. I seem like I’m happy. I am confident in my body. I feel good but I feel like its still there itching it’s way into me.
It hard to put lots of hours into these horses both prep work and driving only to be told that the owners 14 year old daughter who drives maybe once a month and for 5 years less than you will be the one driving the amateur 4 class at the show. It’s hearing things like this that makes me wonder why I work so hard. I guess I will keep on working hard in hopes of some day driving 4 at a show.
So I started a blog dedicated to my days that I work with horses. The goal is to post everyday on what I did…I hope I can keep with it. If anyone cares its workingwithpercherons.blogspot.com
Being asked if you fall asleep watching movies every night…’Yes because I don’t trust myself to fall asleep to my own thoughts’
I want the type of guy who has enough class to pull a chair out for me and treat me like a lady but has the sense of humour to take a selfie with me on our wedding day
It’s sweet when someone remembers every detail about you. Not because you keep reminding them, but because they pay attention to you.
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At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away.
It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation.
What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.
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